i finally understand why some guys want to meet their gfs all the time while others don’t. it all boils down to how confident they are about keeping the girl / how hot the girl is.

i have friends who cannot stand being apart from their girl and go to extremes to be physically near her. but my boy does not afford me such zeal in life. i’d love to have a guy who is so protective of me. i’d love to have a guy who attempts to keep tabs on me. i’d love to have a guy to spend all my happy and sad moments with.

where is that guy??

my boy can go for days without contacting me at all. isn’t he afraid that i’ll two time him? isn’t he afraid that we’ll drift apart such that in time to come, we won’t even recognize each other anymore?

its already happening and i am powerless to stop it cos he obviously isn’t going to do anything about it. what happens then?

like now i don’t even know what he does for the whole week. i know he is working but surely he isn’t working 24/7 .. there must be times when he is doing leisure stuff but i never know of those times. he never tells me when something special happens, like maybe he worked till 3am or that he got caught in the rain or that he fell sick or that he had a bad / good day or that he’s searching for a certain bike item. (i might not understand the bike lingo but sharing signifies that i am in the circle of trust) im not asking for him to report to me at regular intervals but telling me stuff about your day would be nice.

sigh i honestly hope he gets more free time to spend with me soon cos i really really don’t know how much longer i can hold up not seeing him for weeks and weeks on end. is this just a temporary phase or the start of a life-long nightmare? its been going on like this for almost a year already… how long more will this go on for?