damn free these days.. damn damn free.. hope the holiday materializes soon but trying not to hold any expectations cos it could very well be cancelled seeing as nothing has been done about securing tickets or places to stay…

drifting very far from the boy oft late. don know how or why or what to do. just going to let it go on bah its not in my control anyway and i have learnt not to force things. if it happens it happens nothing i do or not do will change it.

deciding on which job to take up pretty soon. so far 1 successful job which i rejected to the horror of everyone and the boy included cos its such a good deal. i think he could be avoiding me cos of that now. don take it upon yourself that its your fault i rejected the job. i personally don wan to start work so soon and its not a job that i am particularly attracted to. so don think im doing this all for you and our much awaited trip. YES i really wish we could go on a holiday together to rekindle our love. if you are too aloof to realise, we haven spoke in more than a month and we barely know anything about what’s going on in each other’s life for the past month. i dont wish for it to get progressively worse hope you feel the same too.

don know la i very sick of the job interviews already would hope to secure a job asap!!!!!! >.<

mayb i shud adopt a new lifestyle. one that keeps me temporarily happy. i miss the boy. do you think he misses me?