its never meant to be. the type of people i go for – male and female are the type that i’ll never last with. the best friends i had, that i fell out with, are the ones that i couldn’t bear to let go. the further they drifted, the harder i fought to keep them close. and ultimately it came to naught.

same goes for the men. the indecent, tattooed, smoking bad boys. they r the kind you cannot keep in a cage. they are the kind that cannot be controlled. they are the kind that cannot give security cos they need so much personal space that sometimes it feels like they are not there.

i suppose i need to change my taste before i get into my next r/s. i also need to learn how to live with myself, to be independent, to not let my mood b dictated by the other. no doubt i have appealing looks. but i do not have the skills to retain these men. maybe im just too open too nice. men just want to be abused and ignored to be in love. sigh… the irony of life…. pffft…

read this article to know why.. http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1063752/Treat-mean–Big-pants-sex-months-One-mans-fail-safe-tips-winning-man-dreams.html