isit better to kill myself or kill myself?? how can i keep my mouth shut and secrets to myself? omg some friends are never meant to be. no allegiance to anyone, no love lost, no feelings of remorse. why are there such people in this world?! my mind is a whirl now. isit really true that no one can be trusted? if so, life is bloody lonely then i’d rather not live anymore.

LEARN WOMAN LEARN! trust the right people or trust no one but yourself. sigh i hate to admit this but Caramel u were right i guess i still got lots more to learn about this harsh world.

Men r nothing but trouble to constantly guess what they r thinking, what makes them tick. i can never grasp it. my heart is cold and gray from all this conniving talk and distrust and deconstruction of the true meaning of love and commitment.

isn’t love just a simple game for 2? when did it become a game of giving the other party enough space and not being irritating/possessive…? if you love each other, you’ll want to spend time with each other but u don want to spend too much time?! if i love you i shouldn’t disturb u? huh? but if i don what kind of relationship are we in?

sigh and yet i kno if i were in that position i wouldn’t want someone to keep hounding me and making me feel guilty for not giving you time either… but i needs to feel important to you! how am i considered important if i don hear from you for weeks on end if u prioritise your work before me, is this really what life is like when in love? 

bahhh…if being single can keep me worry-free then i’d rather b single forever.