the pace of my real life has accelerated tremendously over the last few months that I have not paid much attention to my cyber persona. truly sorry and i deserve it if none of you read here anymore… )=

some updates -

work’s been superb… busy but fulfilling… i have never felt so alive before!
im becoming more perceptive of things and people and my emotions on the whole. when i see people, i can place them into categories now. categories of good or bad people. categories of half full or half empty glasses. categories of people that i will like or people that will irk me. i’ve even reached a new high – i know what type of girls i will be attracted to IF i were a boy!

its funny how just a yr ago, i was lost and confused. yet here i stand now, with battle scars, but finally attaining some sort of peace in my head. i have a place where i belong now. i have a vision of the kind of life i want to lead in future. and i will be holding on to that. cos it is all that i have to keep me going. it is all that i have to keep me sane. it is all that will ground me when i become giddy with love once again.

we must remember – couple love isn’t everything. it might be sweet it might be heartwarming it might bring tears to your eyes. but only in stories can giddy teenage love persevere into old age. in reality, people get married out of convenience, out of commitment, out of fear of being lonely, out of ‘the time is right’ concept. love is a spark that does not last.

n now i know exactly what type i like. which is why i know with full certainty that my life will be… an unmarried one. and im absolutely cool with it…. until my friends start to get married 1 by 1… we’ll talk about it when things come to pass…