2009 is 3 months old. and i can honestly say that i have been 100% hardworking cos I haven taken a single day of MC, haven applied for a single day of leave (if you count only the successful ones)… i  should be given a medal of honour or sth!

however such is the sad fact of life. the more capable you prove to be, the more work you will be loaded with. which is good i suppose but still… it’d b nice to have someone commend you for your hard, quality work BEFORE they load you with more burdens!

im hoping for the day when clarity will befall me. when my vision will be clear as the blue sky. when i will know what the hell i want to do with this life. and i pray for clarity to arrive before it is too late. before i turn 30 and regret what i have done / been doing with my life.

it be great to know exactly whether i will have to be independent for the rest of my life or that i will have someone trustworthy and kind to depend on. no matter how much equality we have, it is always nice to know there is someone to spend the rest of your life with. someone to walk down the path of life with me.

at least if i know that i will have to be independent, i can narrow down my future to 2 simple paths:

A. Spend everything I earn since I don’t need to plan for my children’s education.

B. Be stingy and miserly to hoard many many money so I can live in the lap of luxury and be a wealthy TAI TAI like Mrs B! Possibly when Im 86 I might just decide to give $1bn prize to whoever has the ability to bring me to gspot high at that ripe old age?! HA!

So yea if any of you out there know anyone who can give me some pointers on what my life will be like… please drop me a comment i will be eternally grateful!