i think i like him. cannot even begin to fathom why except that i am really really attracted. he’s completely not the type that excites me AT ALL. average height, slight built, fair and very cheeky and playful like a little boy. but im totally sold on him. >.<
i suppose on a subconscious level i’ve always had a good feeling toward him. seeing him always cheers me up. then last tuesday the love bug hit. or rather made its presence more apparent.
my first instinct was to declare to the world. like how the impulsive me will normally behave. i resisted the urge and now… i am in a place with 10 million worries. shit
and the top 3 on the list..
1. most important, does he like me too?
2. will i regret my choice later on?
3. will parents like him? (i think they might on the basis that he’s harmless, but they might also find him kiddish… tho i think they won’t mind so long as he’s a good person) –> update 15/03/10 : yes the parents definitely would, cos i just found out recently he is freaking rich… like omfg rich and only son. which could be a potential obstacle… hmm…
n i really believe he’s a good person beneath the merciless teasing n the mean remarks. at least he’s got good upbringing so he’s naturally gentlemanly n he makes me feel safe! *guess those powerful-looking biceps help haha…
i don hav answers to #1 and #2 yet. so this time i am so keeping this secret under wraps. no one must know. ever. cos once bitten twice shy. it happened b4 with da wei. a completely good friendship lost. so this time, if im not sure of how he feels, i will not show anything. i will really be terribly sad to lose him as a friend. i am quite sure that if he knew, he wouldn’t know how to react around me anymore and that would be the end of anything good between us.
ps: in case ur wondering.. dragon is now in the question mark zone cos i don see him anymore so i think the feelings are kind of slowly dying… ):
